Monday, October 25, 2010

Progress


On Thursday, October 23, 2010, I had the great opportunity to meet Dr. Acosta. Dr. Acosta is a middle school psychologist who works in an independent school. I was refereed to her by Ms. Davis and Dr. Acosta agreed help work out project the research aspect of my project.
I was very nervous to meet her. I didn't really know what to expect even though I had exchanged a few e-mails with her. My idea of actually conducting a research project was very simple: I wanted to know how shy girls were but mainly what caused them to become self conscious during puberty. I know its something like chemical and hormones that trigger in the body but all this is very basic compared to all the studies that are out there. I am only a high school senior student who still doesn't know too much about the world. This is actually a very complex idea and subject to even try to decipher. From what I've heard this has been a much studied subject and how could I really make a difference by collecting all this information is the main question? The main problem before I met Dr. Acosta was actually how I would really conduct this research? Even though I had learned how to do experiments before in my science classes this research is different. This experiment actually involves people. "Real World Data" as my environmental teacher Jan Ott would say. 
Dr. Acosta was very excited to meet me and help me in anything that I needed. She received me with a smile and made me feel at ease instantly. I had actually sent her an overview of my project ideas before I met her and Dr. Acosta seemed to have ideas of her own to help me. I needed to find a real structure and know how to conduct this research and she was really helpful. My initial idea was only to ask middle school girls from the Chinquapin School how shy they felt they were and if they felt self-conscious about themselves? This is actually very simple from the larger question I was trying to get at. From hearing my ideas, she concluded that my research was probably going to be a comparative qualitative research in which I not only relied on the answers of middle school girls but also older girls from different environments. She made me see that young girls going to puberty might know that they are shy and self-conscious but they don't necessarily are always willing to admit it or have the ability to actually reflect on the fact that they are going through a stage. Older, high school girls, actually are able to reflect and sometimes willing to admit that they were shy and express feelings because of their level of maturity. This was not the beginning of my project, this was actually secondary. 
First I was to learn all about the subject and formulate a "hypothesis". I was glad to hear that because I was already preparing to formulate by reading Joann Deak's books How Girls Thrive and Girls Will Be Girls. She advised me to write Literary Reviews. I had no idea what that meant but she explained that a Literary Review was a summary/review of sources that scientist wrote to actually formulate their research. Reading this two sources was a good idea but I also had to read other sources to make my research more extensive.  Putting all this sources together was the key to having a good experiment. 
I have so many other interesting things to relate from my meeting with Dr. Acosta but I actually want to leave it at that. I was so happy to talk to Dr. Acosta and I wouldn't have been able to conduct a good experiment without her help.  physiologist

Monday, October 18, 2010

Checking in...

So far I have accomplished many things with the help of my gracious teachers Susan Davis, Jan Ott, and Tim Holm. One of the parts of my project is to research about the physiological aspect or "thing" that triggers girls to change during puberty and as they go into their teen years. I am very interested in getting an insight into all of these aspects because it will open a new world for me. I can learn through the experiments and writings of other why I became so shy. I can not possibly master my fear/shyness if I can not pin down what happened exactly.
Susan Davis, my Senior Seminar teacher, has provided me with two very essential books that will clear up many of my doubts: Girls Will Be Girls and How Girls Thrive by Joann Deak. I have started reading both book and so far I have started to link a lot of her writings with my own life. These books are directed toward a more adult audience (teachers and parents) but I feel really proud to be able to understand.
Ms. Davis has also put me in contact with a the middle physiologist from Kinkaid and I will be meeting her very soon. I hope to gain first hand knowledge as a professional and possibly in the future work along with her to conduct an experiment either at Chinquapin or Kinkaid.
I have also contacted the new math middle school teacher,Tim Holm, in efforts to hopefully get someone to help me develop my voice. I will soon be writing a proposal to see if I get any results.  Mastery of my shyness involves actually developing my voice so I can become confident that there is nothing to be afraid of.

Tamar Alvarenga

Sunday, October 3, 2010

Annie Lennox: Why I am an HIV/AIDS activist

This is a Ted Talk given by Annie Lennox about raising awareness about HIV/AIDS.

Although this Ted Talk has nothing to do with my project, I do commend the passion with which Annie Lennox has embarked to raise awareness to the public about AIDS. We tend not to talk about things that bother us for fear of making our wounds bleed. We need to talk about the things that are not particularly appealing. Shyness and having the courage to be ourselves is the wound that hurts for many us. When we are not ourselves we resort to lying to living a double life and become miserable. We need to find ourselves, stand up for what we believe. Lennox talks about this subject because she is passionate about it and the challenge for and for everyone is to do that for themselves.