Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Tentative Panel

This is the list of the tentative panel members that I will have to evaluate my project at the end of the year: Jan Ott, Susan Davis,  Dr. Amy Acosta, Jen Pickering,  and Marcela Gandara.

  1. Jan Ott the Environmental Science teacher and she has also agreed to coach me to less self-conscious. She also has experience with singing. She can help me with her coaching abilities and also with the technical side of singing.
  2. Susan Davis is my English teacher and also a coach. She has put me in contact with people that can help me move further in the project.
  3. Dr. Amy Acosta is a middle school psychologist who helped me figure out the purpose and the steps to carry out an experiment. I think that her professional skills of a psychologist can help me have a better experiment. 
  4. Jen Pickering used to be my mentor and she is part of the board of Chinquapin. She can be an outside judge that can look at my project objectively and make a decision of whether I made progress or not.
  5. Marcela Gandara is one of the women that inspire my singing. I think that she could be a judge of my signing and determine whether I express the emotion I talk about. She lives in El Paso, Texas.           I also am looking for a signing teacher so if I get one soon that person will probably on my panel of judges. 


Today, I have a better understanding of what I had when I started brainstorming for my senior project. I know that I that I will carry out an experiment that will reinforce the research carried by Joann Deak and many other scientists. Dr. Amy Acosta gave helped me figure why I was really doing the research. The purpose of this experiment is to actually collect qualitative research that will give me an insight as to what girls think and feel from two different economic and racial spectrum's. Girls are girls in any place of the world but they are affected by different influences and that is something that is fact that could become helpful for the further development of teenage girls today. I also know that even though I have progressed in some ways with my research I have been set back with my lack of organization. I see that for the next semester I have to set deadlines and organize my time to work more efficiently and effectively.
During this Winter Break, I must confirm the members of my panel, write a consent form for the participants of my research, figure out a few tentative dates for the experiment, keep on reading the books by Joann Deak, and find a voice teacher. There are many things but if I organize myself then I will be able to accomplish my goals.






The Day Is Approaching Us....

So for the first time in my life,  I along with Chassidy Smith will (with the help of God) sing to a large audience at the Annual Chinquapin Christmas Dinner at the gym. In reality this is not a very exciting moment for me. I am terrified because I know that somehow I will disappoint someone. The problem is that I am already disappointed with myself because of my indecisiveness but mostly my lack strength to adhere to my ideals. I am singing a Christmas song that I have no emotional connection to and that I shouldn't really sing because that would translate to celebrating the holiday. It is awesome that I am going to attempt to sing but I can't feel happy about it. What will everyone think? Will they laugh? Will they think, what is she doing? And even if I do sing OK and people praise me, how will I respond to that when inside I know that I do not feel good about what I did? These are all the feeling that flood into my mind as Thursday, December 16, 2010 approaches.

My Sentence...

I have struggled to have the courage to express the emotions of shyness that have been built up like a concrete wall through the years by signing what my soul has called me to do and mastered my fears.