"A good idea will keep you awake during the morning, but a great idea will keep you awake during the night."

I have been reading a lot in order to learn more about the way my brain works and just how girls tend to be when they are young. As I was reading Joann Deak's book "How Girls Thrive", I found the quote given by Marilyn Van Savant "A good idea will keep you awake during the morning, but a great idea will keep you awake during the night." (Joann Deak, 35). I read that quote I and  I could not help but smile. I smiled because even though in the past century there has been millions of research done about the ways girls act and how they are influenced (meaning that my idea is by no means original) , I myself never understood why I acted the way I did or felt the way I do. My idea is captivating to me (and maybe someday to others) because I am going through the stage and at the same time I am attempting to look at myself objectively. What a hard thing to do at my age.   The main "idea" of my project was to find myself. I wanted to understand why I stopped singing even though I knew that "inside" the feeling that I had was embarrassment and fear. I had never have taken time to deal with that aspect nor my mom has any idea that all this world exists. I don't blame her for not knowing how to deal with this world because she probably had some similar feeling of inadequacy when she was young that her mother never knew how to deal with. So that just shows the chain that exists in the world of not- knowing therefore meaning that this "world" doesn't really exists. 

There third chapter of this of Joann Deak's book deals with the three ingredients that a girls must have in order to have a good/balanced self-esteem. They are green frogs, green fingernails, green marbles.  Yes, as goofy as it may seem these are the three tittles of the stories that show the ingredients which are really competence, confidence, and connectedness. Joann Deak uses these three stories to help us associte these three ingredients to gain self-esteem .

I am happy to have read these book it has helped a lot. 

Last Semester ...

Well so far, Jan Ott, Susan Davis,  Dr. Amy Acosta, Jen Pickering, and Mrs. Spires have agreed to part of my panel of judges. They are going to be the people who are going to determine and grade the successes of my senior project. I am really excited to start this new year and  hopefully finish strong. 

I would like to thank Chassidy Smith for encouraging me to sing at the Christmas Event held at the Chinquapin Preparatory School gym. I have to say that I was terrified to go up in front of everyone. We only practiced a little bit but it went well. I believe that the next step that will help me keep on advancing in the journey to find confidence is to receive constructive criticism. I wish to improve and that only means that I have to accept criticism. So,  I would like to invite anyone who heard me sing at the Christmas Event to give me any suggestions. I also will start to record myself more when I sing so I can track my progress. 


This last few months before my presentation are going to be by far the toughest. The goal I have is to conduct a qualitative comparative research of high school and middle school girls at the Chinquapin Preparatory School and a private school in the Houston area. This study will try discover the way girls feel at this ages: whether they feel shy or with low self esteem by counting the recurring words. This research will be very interesting because the girls of these two particular schools differ economically and ethnically. With this being said, I have to actually write consent letters and talk to the director of the school in the Houston area to get the school consent. I think that Dr. Acosta might help me conduct this study.

My second goal is to actually sing by myself in a "small concert"  hosted by me or at the senior graduation.  For now, the plan I have is to actually practice singing while recording it simultaneously. I will try to each week post a video online and allow people to give me constructive criticism.  Since I could not find a voice teacher I decided to go on this route.